Withdrawing admissions to Cal Poly Slo.
Scatter thoughts
- I don’t need pity invites. It’s two of you versus the whole group. But oh wells, not like we can’t plan our own thing. You’re gna get burnt, just saying.
- I’m really out of it today. Such an emotionless day, and when there was any emotions, it’d be irritation and pissed-off-ness. Hha, makin’ up new words.
- It’s good to have my best friend back. I think after the whole situation, we’ve grown fonder/stronger, and are able to say whatever.
- UCIrvine, I’m growing fonder of the idea as the days passes. I understand that it is 7 hours away from the bay, but it is a fresh start. I’ve always wanted to get away from San Jose and everything, and after my getaway to Nicaragua, this is it. I’m not saying I hate San Jose or anything, I love it. I don’t plan on leaving it, but 16 years here is good for now. I hate the fact that it is so far from here - from family, friends, everyone/everything. Most of the people I know and care for will be up north. I was very hesitant of the idea, and still am. But I think it’s starting to grow on me. Well, we’ll see as the days past. Lol, I know for sure I’ll be crying like a baby when my momma drops me off and leaves me.
- Not really in shock or whatnot at the fact that I finally graduated high school. I mean, it’s been 2 days and I’m still like, oh okay. Honestly, I’m not gna miss it like people say they will. The people who’ve made an impact in my life, I’ll still be seeing them and kickin’ it over summer and beyond. Otherwise, high school was 4 years of bsing my way through AP/IB courses maintaining a 3.8, dealing with fakes, unnecessary “drama”, and teachers/counselors who don’t really care. I mean, I do get this small tingly feeling of, ‘oh damn, I graduated’ but other than that, it’s mkays.
- I’m sorry for being a grump today. I know you’ve had a long day yourself. But I hate you working! Taking you away from me. How the hekc am I suppose to deal with being 7 hours away from you for hekca months when I can’t even deal with not seeing you for a couple of days when we’re only like 30 minutes away from each other. You better visit me every so often! Sights, okay, good night baby. ♥
- I need to get another car of my own pronto! &I also need a job. Homies at the places I applied for needs to call back already ):
Your girl is now officially an anteater.
UC IRVINE
C/O 2016.
Today’s a good day.
Patch things up with my bestfriend. Hopefully what happened did not scar us from continuing where we left off. Watched A Walk to Remember. Great nap. &Got into UCI! ♥
Cal Poly’s admittance email is pretty creative.
Accepted to Cal Poly Obismo
Northern Arizona University
Sacramento State
CSU LA
CSU East Bay
Waiting on the UC’s. 7 more days till UC letters are sent.
George Washington U
UC Los Angelos
UC San Diego
UC Irvine
UC Davis
UOP
Last words
2011 has been a real roller coaster. Whether it was family, friends, school, relationships, and anything else. I can say though, that 2011 has taught me lots. It has not been the best year but hey, it was a lesson. There’s been a lot of unfinished business and unsaid things.
QJBT - Hi baby, I just want to say thank you. We got to know each other at the end of 2010 at around this time. &As 2011 began, I had a feeling that you were going to be a big part of my life. You’ve been there for me through my ups and downs with family, school, and anything else. Its been a great ten months with you. You’re able to love me for who I am and put up with me. It’s a great feeling to know that I get to end a year with you and start a new one with you. You’re the only person who was able to make me smile and laugh when I was down or stressed out the most, the one who understands me when I make no sense at all. I can’t wait to start this new year with you behb, I love you.
JJRV - I know there’s a lot of unsaid things between us. Maybe you don’t have anything to say, but I do. I just want to start off and say I miss you. I’m not gna lie. I miss my ex-best friend and I’m not afraid to admit that. Six years of friend ship just to end with silence. I don’t really understand or know what even happened. Shit just happened on a whim, but maybe it was destined to be. I’m not afraid also to say sorry - sorry for everything that you’ve felt went wrong between us, sorry for not being the best friend that you wanted. I thought I was doing my duty as a friend: to be there for you, listen, and everything else. I know that you’ve put your best into this friendship. I am not doubting that. However, I am not saying that I did not put my best into it too. I felt like I’ve done my best. Maybe things were just too tense between us, and feelings don’t want to be hurt. But hey, things happen for a reason. I also feel that we, both, have too much pride to step up to each other and say something. Overall, I just want to say sorry for making you feel whatever way it is. I’ve never said nothing is my fault. I’ll take blame for not putting effort or for whatever it is. But I’m just saying now that this is a new year, and this will be the last time I am saying this. I love you best friend, not gna lie. But I guess it is a good bye now.
YA>|UZA - I miss you guys. But this is also a good bye now.
RK, AN, ST - I’m happy to have gotten close to you guys. You boys don’t make sh/t complicated. Thanks for being there(:
HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE. 2012, this is going to be a good year. SENIO12S, you ready!?
New Year’s challenge
Day 1: A few things you will never forget in 2011.
Day 2: Relationship(s).
KP - I’m not gna lie, I do miss you. Though we were only dating, it was something worth remembering. You were one of those very few who were able to give me a real smile and laugh whenever we were together.
JT - Crazy we’ve been together for ten months. Through ups and down we’ve kept it going strong. Crazy feelings when I am with you. You are amazing, and keep me sane. <3
Day 3: The best day.
Couple here and there.
Day 4: The worst day.
Hm, them school days.
Day 5: The most memorable moment.
Look at day 1.
Day 6: Your best friend(s).
We aren’t friends anymore. Strangers more like it. But hey, though we are strangers, I still care.
Day 7: Your birthday.
It was alright.
LOL, meet my sister and my boyfriend. I am too comfortable with them.
You’re not worth my time anymore.
I used to care, but then I realized, what’s the point.
Though we are strangers now, I still care.
Hope you’re alright.
I told my boyfriend that there’s nothing around the house to snack on and that I am going to have to stay up all night to do work and he surprises me with this at 1AM. He also got one for my little sister. I love my boyfriend. <3Thanks behbs(;
- Last night my mom and I had a “race” to see who could go back to the dad’s place first. She took the siblings. & By accident, I ran a red light. When we got to his house and she dropped off the siblings, she laughed at me for running a red light. I love my mom.
- Side note, I feel like going for a run, balling up, tennis, boxing something or someone; do something active to relieve this tension/stress I’m feeling.
Lol, they’re cute.
So it’s 3:02 AM and I’m up doing work. My boyfriend calls every now and then to check up on me to make sure I didn’t fall asleep and that I’m still on task. When I was done with one of my assignment, I needed him to print it out cos I don’t have a printer in my apartment. He was going to print it out but realized that his internet connection was down. So he told me to send it to him anyways. Once I did, he tells me that he’s going to be back in a bit. Questioned him where he was going, and he told me that he’s going to run to his homie’s house and print it there. He currently just left. My love for him is indescribable. Thank you hunn. But please don’t be so stubborn again when I tell you to not do it ‘cos it’s late and I don’t want anything to happen to you. <3
